Hello I’m new to this group. This is my first support group. I have been battling GBS for a little over a year and a half and well it’s been a challenge to say the least. I’m an electrical engineer that nobody wanted to hire(not the greatest GPA), so I unsuccessfully tried to start businesses. Then GBS decided to kick my ass and i found myself without any insurance or money. I was told I had a mild case and was extremely lucky that I got treated when i did because i was probably a few hours away from it shutting down my breathing. After I was released from the hospital i couldn’t afford physical therapy so I have been my own physical therapist taking responsibility for my own recovery. It was painful and frustrating at times but I’m tough and my personal goal was being able to play guitar and disc golf again.(I can do both again btw tho I’m nowhere as good as i used to be)
I’ve made some really good progress in my recovery as I am able to do many things for myself again, however I’ve recently been struggling mentally to keep my emotions in check. I live with my dad and aunt and while my dad is very understanding of what i am going through my aunt is intentionally making my life more difficult. I’m so angry and frustrated that it makes life cumbersome for me most of the time. I’m getting to the point where i just don’t want to be here and I’m fighting to try to stay up beat but the mental fatigue is real. As many of you know, energy is a limited resource for people like me and I feel my energy being drained more by my agitated state.
I’m really glad i found this site. Just knowing i can talk with people that know what I’m going through has given me some much needed hope. I’ve been alone in my recovery so far but I’ve learned that I don’t have to be. Anyways thanks for reading and I’m looking forward to talking with you all.